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My May was fun and I thank AHEAD, my review center, for that.

I'm not sure if you can stumble upon this site but, anyway...

Thank you Ms. Debbie, Ms. Cecille, and my classmates (esp. Cynet, Kazuki, Trish, Jesyl, Sam, and Noah) for making the review worthwhile.

And thanks to the many teachers who shared fun lectures and experiences with us.

Thanks to Jaime, a classmate, for the swimming party last, last Friday. To Nicole, for the swimsuits. To Sam, for the ride to ATC. To Trish, for worrying about how I'd get home. And to Nina, Nicole, Jesyl, and Trish for the hugs. I haven't had a real hug for a long time, so, thanks again for that.

And, sorry for coming to class tardy everyday. Hehehe.

BTW, AP6b is our section's name.

"It started out as a feeling..."

I watched "The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian" with my classmates friends last Thursday.

We entered the cinema 30 minutes earlier. I didn't know about that fact until we were seated and Kuya Jeri said that we were watching the last 30 minutes of the movie. I wasn't carrying anything that could tell me the time and no one stopped me from entering the cinema. If I were only conscious about the time, I should have told them to wait until the movie ends. Anyway, we sort of played a game. We shut our eyes so we won't get spoiled though I think I was the only one who followed the rule.

And because my vision was temporarily disabled, I decided to use my hearing to learn of what happens. Then a soft song played. "It started out as a feeling..." it began. My mind was carried into some place where nothingness is present, where the soft song continued playing. Finally, the credits appeared. No more "closed eyes"! But the song played over and over in my head.

Note: MIGHT contain spoilers.

The movie started as Caspian's professor helped the young prince to escape from the castle because his uncle, Miraz, wants to steal the throne from him. The prince was given a horn which he was told to use only in utmost necessity. Some time later, the horn was blown. And so it began.

This movie is a must-see. I loved the soundtrack. I loved the animation. I loved the plot [though I don't remember reading anything between Prince Caspian and Susan]. I loved how well the battles were directed. I haven't seen an ancient battle that made me so hooked like this, lately.

The movie made me appreciate the book. I didn't enjoy reading Prince Caspian as much as I did with The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe, The Silver Chair, and The Last Battle. I have read this when I was in elementary and I have forgotten much of it already, so, I'm planning to reread The Chronicles of Narnia, but this time, I'm starting backwards. Hehehe.

The movie also made me love King Peter even more! I was thinking that I might pick Caspian over Peter, but the movie proved me wrong. My love meter for Caspian went down during their infiltration in the Telmarine Kingdom. But it went up during his appearance in "Susan's Telmarine encounter".

But my meter for Peter was waaaay up. This was because of his one-on-one fight with King Miraz. And because he is King Peter, the Magnificent and because he is the High King.

I felt so sad about the ending [along with the sad song I mentioned earlier]. Watch it and you'll know why.

BTW, I give this film five stars!

P.S. I'm practicing writing a nice [and effective] movie review and I tried very hard not to spoil the readers. Anyway, a lot of movies are still out there that can help me develop my "movie review writing".

Contains spoilers:

I just remembered, the horn given to Caspian was Susan's originally. It's cute thinking that when the horn was blown, a call [or something like that] was made so that he could get aid from the Narnians and the kings and queens of Narnia. And it seems like he called Susan. Hehehe. That's sweet. LOL.

René Tamaki Richard Grantaine

Following my previous post about my despair, could it be that I am in love? If that is so, then must I take this test too?

Click on the picture to enlarge.

Anyway, I want to make this post's mood a bit happier so I'll fill this with OHSHC memories (a.k.a Tamaki memories).

I am in love with Suou Tamaki. It is he whom I prefer Haruhi to end with. I'll make my reason brief because I have had enough of defending him for the past days. LOL. So let me just show you the comment I made for Kriselle's post.

"Before (when Haruhi and Hikaru dated which ended with a thunderstorm), I fell in love with Hikaru. From that point, I voted for Hikaru. All because he has a bitter history and that he allowed someone into their world--about the "Which One is Hikaru?" game. But when I reached the part about how Tamaki worked very hard to get the twins in the host club [plus, telling them something like "No one would ever know which is which if they don't allow people to enter their world."], about how he enlightened Hani to be who he really wants to be, about how he wanted to be friends with Kyoya [though their parents are sort of enemies in business], about how his parents sold him, about how much he loved his mother, and about how he was so disliked by his grandmother, I fell in love with him. I switched my vote to Tamaki."

So that was how my story went. Anyway, I don't know what to feel about this—Lady Eclair doesn't appear in the manga. I am so disappointed. For me, her presence made watching the anime's ending worthwhile. Actually, it was she who made my love meter for Tamaki increase by 60% from 41%. Yes, that's 101% in total. It's just too hard for me to accept that Lady Eclair isn't really true. I mean, in making an anime, changing the plot a little bit is okay, but going that far is...I don't know. I find it unacceptable. I mean, an episode was invented! That makes my love meter drop to 70%.
See, I really liked the way Haruhi called out, "Senpai, come back! No one wants you to leave." And the way Tamaki refused and said, "But the host club has caused trouble for everyone." And where Haruhi replies, "Senpai, you really are an idiot! A big idiot! After all this time we've been together, you can't even tell the difference between a joke and the truth? Everyone loves the Host Club! They really love it!" And she adds, "I—I love the host club too." Then she extends her hand to Tamaki just like Tamaki always does to everybody. This also shows that Lady Eclair has a soft spot after all—when she lets go of Tamaki's arm so he could save Haruhi—after telling Tamaki, "You're a host, aren't you? Make me happier." I'm actually currently addicted to "Shissou".

But I couldn't think of a better ending for the anime, so i would have to half-heartedly leave it at that. Fortunately, reading the manga added 30%, which makes my love 100% now.

BTW, I collected quotes from the manga but I realized that they were all Tamaki-related. So, here goes...

##Apologize to everybody. Lots and lots to Tamaki too. Apologize for causing such a worry.
-I didn't actually understand why Haruhi's act troubled Tamaki so much until Hani explained that Haruhi got everyone worried. I guess thinking like Haruhi, sometimes, might get me in trouble.

##You know, we like Tamaki very much. So we can’t forgive anyone who hurts Tamaki.

##

@You’re only a third son, so no matter how much you try, you can never be the heir to the family, can you? No wonder you lick crumbs of glory from the boots of the chairman’s son.

Hey, that’s none of your business. If you have a grudge, resolve it in the competition.

@Oh my! How ill-mannered. Whose daughter is she?

Why do we have to care when we aren’t doing anything bad?

-Those two up there make me love Tamaki even more.

##

@I really don’t have much ideas when it comes to martial arts but, isn’t strength the ability to renounce every lie in your heart? Although it is not my place to imply, but to hide your true self only to impress others is just a form of cowardice to me. Is it not best to be who you are and accept it?

Wouldn’t you agree that having the courage and bravery to be honest with yourself is another form of strength?

@For the sake of Miss Mitsuyama’s misery, the host club must win!

@That day, we found our hearts unexpectedly warmed by Highness, who’d said exactly what we’d always longed to hear.

-Proof that under Tamaki's childish behavior lies a mature mind.

##

@Grandmother! You took the trouble to come, grandmother!

@I’ll move to Japan alone. I’ll be fine. So mom, please stay healthy.

-Proof that he doesn't hold grudges.

Next comes my HanixMori mania.

##I see. Suou asked you to join too, Takashi? You know what he said to me? He said that it’s alright for me to like sweet things. And it’s fine for me to love cake. What should I do, Takashi?

You should do what your heart tells you to do.

##To get someone to understand, you need to talk to them. If you want them to like you, you should talk to them a lot! I don’t like having my feelings changed by a curse. Things that Kanazuki-chan likes, is not good at, or makes her happy—if you talked about things like that, I’d like to hear more about them Kanazuki-chan, you know, I—I like people who put in effort, even if they’re not good at it.

##A person who can’t care about himself can’t protect anyone, I think.

Brotherly love~

##Let’s go home, Hikaru. When we get home, let’s take a bath together like in the old days! Let’s sleep in our own identical pajamas after lining up our pillows and from tomorrow on, let each of us have our own room.

##I love you, Haruhi. But the truth is, Hikaru is more important to me.

##The next time that you lie to me, I won’t forgive you.

##Kaoru, you are kind, so you are ready to restrain your desire and let Hikaru have it?←Haruhi saying such serious things for a cookie.

-I could have cried when I read those lines if OHSHC were intended for drama. Whenever you read a touching line and you feel tears beginning to form in your eyes, someone from the characters pops and injects humor into it.

Random quotes:

Mori: I have thought of wanting to kiss Mitsukuni.

Tamaki: To be more precise, I am LIKE her father.
Was this Kyoya?: What makes you think that?
Tamaki: Because I find her cute and I had desires of kissing her and I am full of thoughts of my own child.

Tamaki: Mom, the pressure on a third son must be tough. Would you like a shoulder massage?
Kyoya: Thanks, dad. But you know, I’m enjoying it.

I also remember having this thing for this:

"Ouran Private Academy is defined, by: one, prestigious families, and two, wealth. And prosperous people with time on their hands. Therefore, Ouran Host Club is about these handsome guys that have time.. Giving hospitalities to these lovely ladies who also have time.. And profit off of them. It's an elegant game unique to this super-rich school."

I don't know, but for me, nothing beats the beginning which is repeated in the end. It never fails to impress me, no matter how many times I have seen things like these. But the plot has to be good first, of course. Hearing this in the last episode makes me want to cry and smile at the same time which directs me to my previous post—my dislike for endings.

Before I end this, I was thinking, will it be okay if Haruhi ends with no one instead? Because just now, I realized that accepting HikaruxHaruhi will be difficult for me. At the same time, TamakixHaruhi will be difficult for the other party. So I was thinking of a 'surprise ending', I mean, I won't get that surprised if Haruhi ends with Hikaru. It obviously won't be surprising if she ends with Tamaki. So for an unexpected ending, she might end up with no one because I'm guessing that whoever she ends up with, the host club will be dissolved in either way. And from the title itself, it means that it's all about the host club. Anyway, that's just a guess.

P.S. I apologize if you got tired of reading "Tamaki" over and over.

Conclusions

I am blue. I feel dispirited, pensive, depressed, lonely, and melancholic. I feel confused and anxious at the same time.

A few hours back...

I left the computer to get a bar of chocolate. I paced back and forth. I went to the porch. I went to my sister's bedroom. I stared at my drawings. I played the piano. I decided to watch a movie but ended up not finishing it due to lack of interest. I felt the desire to eat supper but I didn't have the appetite to. Do you know this feeling―when your stomach wants to eat but your mind doesn't want you to? And so I thought of turning to the computer to spill my thoughts.

Back to the present...

I have been thinking what might be the reason for my melancholy is. Is it that I feel easily disheartened by conclusions? Is it that I find moving on very difficult?

I dislike having [good] things to end. That's why, knowing that I have only two episodes left and that the series is about to end, I almost *cried during these two episodes of Ouran High School Host Club. The appearance of Lady Eclair made the greatest contribution. If it wasn't for her, the ending would not be that appealing and interesting. And Haruhi's dramatic scene calling out to his Tamaki-senpai would not come into existence if it wasn't her. Too bad that was not in the manga. Anyway, I need to stop my ranting here for that would be in a different post.

Having finished the manga may have also contributed to my somber mood. I haven't actually finished it since it's ongoing, what I meant is that I finished reading the latest chapter. Anyway, why did I choose to read something that has not been finished yet? It makes me so upset. Cliffhangers make me so upset. It makes me want to promise never to read manga which has not been given an ending yet.

Anyway, I should cut my post here. Prolonging this might result to rants which might make a following post about this impossible.

*What is it with me crying?! Or about to cry?! Why am I suddenly starting to get sentimental [over video games and anime]?!