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Sunday, April 27, 2008

Kyoko and Katsuya

I still can't get enough of Fruits Basket that I made another post, this time about Kyoko and Katsuya, Tohru's parents.

Just so you know about their background, Kyoko was a member of a gang. She doesn't attend classes and she was never liked by her parents. In return, she never liked her parents too and she always ends up saying bad things to them. She gave up her membership in the gang when she met Katsuya. Katsuya, is a student teacher Kyoko met in her school.

I won't make this post long so let me take you the part about that them that I liked so much.

Kyoko was afraid when she got pregnant. She was afraid that she might not raise the child well. She doesn't believe that she has the ability to raise a child like a human [because she was a former a gang member]. She fears that her child might tell her that she never wanted Kyoko for her mother.

And you know what Katsuya said?

The child you have will be one human child. You'll give it lots of embraces and touches. You'll listen to what your child has to say. If it does something wrong, you'll be sure to teach it why those things are bad. And if you ever lose control of yourself and end up wronging that child, then you will apologize. And then you'll hug again. The two of us will raise our child like that.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Hugs

It has been 3 long weeks since I left school. Well, I really didn't leave, it's just that, it's summer.

I've been depressed for a while now. And lately I've been reflecting too. I realized that I haven't had a hug since man, I meant, since last Tuesday. That was from Eunice! I love you, Eunice. Anyway, that was one of the few times I visited school and I only received one hug. I didn't see all my classmates, that's why.

As I have said, I've been down for a while now and I've been reflecting why. I haven't answered the "Why?" yet but I believe that the cure lies somewhere, lurking out there. Yes, I believe that the cure is a hug. Uhhlots of hugs. I used to get lots of hugs. We give hugs all the timelunch time, Math time, whichever time. We also give different kinds of hugsbig hugs from Billy [or PJ, though his can be very constricting], surprise hugsmine usually comes from Effie (she hugs you from behind), group hugsthis happens during someone's birthday, or when we won or when someone's really sad. You can also just walk on the corridors, arms spread out, then hug an innocent passer-by. LOL. This one is an exaggeration. I do that only when I know who the innocent passer-by is. Anyway, I can't think of any more kinds if hugs because my brain tends to shut down when I feel this way. Sometimes, all replies I can manage to think of to tell my chatmates and textmates are dumb replies. Sigh.

"Hugs are not only nice, but are needed. Hugs can relieve pain and depression. Can make the healthier happier, and the most secure even more so. Hugging feels good and overcomes fear."

"Hugging is an amazing medicine. It transfers energy, and gives the person hugged an emotional boost. Someone somewhere said, one needs four hugs a day for survival, eight for maintenance, and twelve for growth. A hug makes one feel good." -Sean Carter






*HUGS* TOTAL!
Give me a hug!

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Fruits Basket (and Kyo)

Lately I've been killing time by watching and reading Japanese products. Hehehe. It's the best thing I can think of to wait until summer lasts.

I finished watching the anime + reading the manga in five days!

Anime vs. Manga

I liked the anime though reading the manga is better because it has more to it than the anime. A lot, lot more to it. I really miss the cool way Yuki calls Tohru Miss Honda in the anime. His voice makes me faint. LOL. And Kyo's voice too. I was also getting too emotional lately that I cried when Tohru talks to Kyo [in his monster form] both in the anime and in the manga. But the anime was better [in this part] because it has sounds and I watched it at around 2am which is a very, very quiet time in our house. Actually, the reason I watched this because I wanted to see something light. I just finished watching Death Note and I wanted to escape all its seriousness, murdering, mysteries, drama and etc. It sort of...haunts me. So I ended up watching Fruits Basket [thinking that it was very light] which made me cry instead.

Yuki, Kyo, and Tohru

The only thing I like about Yuki is his voice so, the only time I liked Yuki was in the anime. Hehehe. Tohru...um, well..no comment. I vote for her as Kyo's love interest, though. Next comes, KYO! I love Kyo. I love him in both the manga and the anime. I liked it when he called Yuki "girly boy". Not that I have anything against Yuki, but it's just so funny. LOL. I loved this part, too...

Kyo: You don't add the -san at the end. Just call me Kyo.
Tohru: Kyo-kun?
Kyo: I said that it's okay.
Tohru: I was just test-saying it.
Kyo: DON'T CALL ME FOR NO REASON!!!
Tohru: Ah..yes.
Kyo: No, it's all right. You can say my name for no reason. Hanging around me is okay, too. If you're mad, you can just like that. Hit me hard.

Hehehe. I like it when he tries to control his temper.


Haru and Rin

I love Haru too. He has cool hair, and cool clothes, and cool attitude, and cool everything. And he takes care of Kisa. It's just so sweet seeing him hugging Kisa. Because of that, I vote the gorgeous Rin for him.

Kisa and Hiro

I love these two. They are sooo cute. Hiro looks just like a young Kyo. And Kisa is a tiger! I love tigers. Actually, I love the felines.

Hiro: Why did you bring us to such an ordinary place? Don't you have ideas like going to a movie, theme parks, or swimming pools inputted in your head?
Tohru: But I'm broke right now.
Kisa: I like parks.
Hiro (to Tohru): You're forgiven.

Hiro hates Tohru because he believes that she steals Kisa's attention from him, so when they received an invitation to the Sohma's villa from Momiji [which means that Tohru is there too]...
Hiro:They might even be smart if they put the minimal amount of effort of what they're doing right now into their intelligence...
Kisa: Hiro...I want to go.
Hiro: Let's go then.

See? That's why I love Hiro. Those two examples are called "sacrifices". LOL.

Ayame, Hatori, and Shigure

I like Shigure's humor. And Ayame's too. And the fact that Shigure is called a "dirty old man" by Yuki and Kyo. LOL. I also like the way Ayame speaks [both in the anime and manga]. And the way he wants to erase the gap between him and Yuki. And the Shigure-Ayame thingy. Hehehe. Hatori...well, he looks scary sometimes. But he's okay.

Momiji and Kagura

It's so sad that these two never met a someone to love. But I feel sad for Momiji the most. I loved the part where he told Kyo, "Soon I'm going to be taller than you Kyo and maybe even cooler. And if that happens, maybe Tohru would accept my proposal. If you give up, then things like that could happen. So, you shouldn't give up." Momiji was cool when he grew older. As for Kagura, it's sad that she just took Kyo as someone to look down on, so that she'd think that there is someone worse than her.

Uo and Kureno and Hana and Shishou

It's great that someone like Uo has found a someone to love. Hehehe. Though the Hana-Shishou thing is sort of weird.

Akito

Akito was evil. I hated him for hurting Hatori, Rin, and Kisa. Wah, my Kisa! Though I feel really sorry for him for being raised as a male. (Wait, I used "him" to refer to her. Akito is a female, BTW.) I also remember crying when she talked to Tohru and hit her [which is seen in one of the last few episodes of the anime]. Why is it that I become so emotional lately?!?! First, Zack's death. Then, twice here. Wah! What is happening to me?!?! Anyway, I loved how Akito's story ended, living with Shigure.

Just so you know, I am currently in love with Kyo. Why do I have this thing for people who have Kyo in their names? Kyouhei and Kyo. LOL. Wait, I love Zack. I loved him more than anyone else except Mr. Darcy, I guess. I love people who have K in their names! Mr. Darcy is an exception, though. I met him a long, long time ago.

Again, I love Kyo. He has a bad temper but that's what makes him sooo cute. He looks cute when he manages to control his temper for Tohru. Another exchange of lines I liked:

Kyo: Is there somewhere you want to go?
Tohru: Um..
Kyo: If you can't decide, I'm gonna sleep.
Tohru: I'll decide! I'll decide, right now! We ran out of eggs. I need to go buy some.
Kyo: That's just grocery shopping. Well, all right. Let's go then.
Tohru: Yes.
Kyo: If you think of some place you want to go to while we're out, say so, okay?
Tohru: Being able to go out together makes me very happy.
Kyo(to himself): (punches the wall) She looked so cute saying that. I feel perverted for thinking that! Is this how dirty old men think? Am I turning into a perverted old man?
Kyo (to Tohru): LET'S JUST GO!

This post is getting long. Hehehe. What can you expect? It has 136 chapters. Anyway, forgive me but I want to add just a little more.

Here are a few things I learned.

If there exists someone who would hurt you, there exists someone who would heal the wounds.

To truly love someone is to always put their feelings before your own, no matter what.
--This is common sense but the way Megumi says it was cool.

It is not a compliment for a man to be called cute.
--Hehehe.

It's when someone says "I like you" first, only then when one begins to think about liking oneself. When someone accepts you first, only then when you can forgive yourself little by little, to start feeling love.
--Kisa was bullied at school so she refused to speak. This reminds me of my sister. She started talking at school only when she transferred schools, which was during her 4th grade. She never spoke in her former school from kindergarten until third grade.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Enlightenment

I still can't get over Zack's death. And I feel the need of posting again.

I felt guilty about blaming Cloud for Zack's death. No, I felt guilty for calling him a weakling. Because part of my self still blames him for Zack's death. I mean, Cloud didn't show even just a little effort that he tried to help Zack! Anyway, enough of that. This post is about my enlightenment. (LOL. Sounds like I met Buddha.)

I felt really sad yesterday because of Zack's death. That was the time I realized how very difficult it is to move on and get over something/someone. Discussing it with my sister helped a bit, though. I also tried talking about it with a friend. I told him how sad I felt about Zack and how I could not move on. I also told him about how I hated Cloud.

I was surprised to receive a different reaction from him. He told me that I shouldn't blame Cloud for being weak. He told me that it isn't that person's fault if he was born weak. I reasoned that you can work to be stronger if you don't want to be weak. But that person will have limits, obviously. He can't be stronger than a man born strong working to be stronger.

I also told him about the hundred infantrymen Zack fought [where Cloud still didn't have the strength to fight and help Zack]. And he told me something like, "So? Kung malakas siya kakayanin niya 'yun." I also remember him saying that Zack was weak too because he died, because if he really was powerful, he wouldn't have died. These words hurt me but I have to admit that he has a point.

He told me that he does not want to be blamed for being born weak. Well, who does? And that's it. I realized that I shouldn't be blaming Cloud for being unable to help Zack. I realized that I shouldn't be blaming someone for being weak or helpless. But this doesn't mean that I have fully forgiven Cloud.

Anyway, to you: thank you for pointing that out.

And maybe, just maybe, I will enjoy playing as Cloud Strife. He was Zack's successor. He must be great, too. Plus, I think that he and Kyouhei have something in similar. *drool* *drool*





Miguel's comment: Mas makapal lang labi ni Kyouhei.

LOL.

P.S.
This doesn't mean that I'd pick Cloud over Zack.
Zack...*drool* *drool*

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Zack Fair

After being promoted to first class SOLDIER, creating a flower wagon for Aerith, defeating Sephiroth in about 10 times, searching for the 7 Goddess Materia, and beating the Genesis Avatar for about 10 minutes, I finally reached the very tragic ending of Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core.

SPOILER: After defeating about a hundred infantrymen, four more infantrymen came. Zack used his remaining energy to defeat them. Zack moved so slow, he was so weak then. He even found it hard to lift his sword. I became so attached to Zack I could feel how exhausted he was. It's as if it was I who fights the infantrymen.

He died dramatically at the end, after giving his last words to Cloud. I was touched when he said something like, "If you see Aerith, say hi for me." I felt so guilty. I never really liked Aerith for Zack. She seemed so gentle and she sort of forces herself towards Zack at the same time, like she's always the one calling Zack, she's the one saying, "I want to spend more time with you", and she's the one asking Zack for dates. I mean, be a little more reserved, Aerith! Moreover, she gave Zack a hard time finding materials for her flower wagon then she says she doesn't like it. I hated that part. Though I sort of loved the part where Zack helped Aerith sell flowers. At that moment, I still disapproved of Aerith. I wanted someone who could fight alongside Zack. Someone like Cissnei.

Anyway, I really felt guilty about being harsh towards Aerith. She sent 89 letters to Zack during the four long years he never returned to Midgard and the only letter Zack received was the 89th. I got excited when I learned that Tseng asked Cissnei to find Zack, so he could give him Aerith's letters. I would like to hear everything Aerith said. But my hopes got shattered when those infantrymen came. Zack's last DMW was a memory of Aerith. Then I began to change my feelings for her.

I still can't accept the fact that Zack died. I fought so hard to defeat Genesis [twice], Angeal, and Sephiroth. I made sure that he has equipped the best materia I made from materia fusions and the best gears. I never let him fight without checking his supplies (potions, soma, ether, remedy). I worked so hard to keep him alive then he'll just die?!

Actually, I blamed Cloud for acting like a weakling. Zack took care of him ever since they got out of Shinra Manor's underground tunnel. He never got well. All he could say was "Ngh" and "Mmh" whenever Zack talked to him. He never recovered. That's why I blame him for Zack's death. If only he could get up and help Zack defeat the battalion of infantrymen.

I hated Tseng. He wanted to capture Zack before. Now he wants to see Zack alive to give him Aerith's letters?! I mean, choose just one side, okay? So I'll know not to trust you.

I also hated Sephiroth. Zack's last mission was with him. They were supposed to work together, and return to Midgard together. But he betrayed Zack. His mission with Sephiroth was his last mission known to Shinra. If Sephiroth never went mad, they could have returned to Midgard and lived happily ever after.

~End of Spoiler~

But the plot won't be as good as it is without these things and these people. It could have been a fairy tale like any other story would end. But it didn't end happily like how Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Rapunzel, or Pride and Prejudice ended. I believe that the best love stories are those with tragic endings. Because these are the stories that will never leave our memory. These are the stories that will touch our hearts so.

Anyway, I pray that posting about this will help me ease my depression, and that it will help me get over with his death. LOL. This is the first game I grew attached to. I got so attached that after realizing that my Zack Fair is gone for good I cried. LOL. I cried, really. I never cry in movies or in books. And it would be really difficult for a person who doesn't know me very very well to make me cry. I can't believe that a video game made me cry.