Zack Fair

After being promoted to first class SOLDIER, creating a flower wagon for Aerith, defeating Sephiroth in about 10 times, searching for the 7 Goddess Materia, and beating the Genesis Avatar for about 10 minutes, I finally reached the very tragic ending of Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core.

SPOILER: After defeating about a hundred infantrymen, four more infantrymen came. Zack used his remaining energy to defeat them. Zack moved so slow, he was so weak then. He even found it hard to lift his sword. I became so attached to Zack I could feel how exhausted he was. It's as if it was I who fights the infantrymen.

He died dramatically at the end, after giving his last words to Cloud. I was touched when he said something like, "If you see Aerith, say hi for me." I felt so guilty. I never really liked Aerith for Zack. She seemed so gentle and she sort of forces herself towards Zack at the same time, like she's always the one calling Zack, she's the one saying, "I want to spend more time with you", and she's the one asking Zack for dates. I mean, be a little more reserved, Aerith! Moreover, she gave Zack a hard time finding materials for her flower wagon then she says she doesn't like it. I hated that part. Though I sort of loved the part where Zack helped Aerith sell flowers. At that moment, I still disapproved of Aerith. I wanted someone who could fight alongside Zack. Someone like Cissnei.

Anyway, I really felt guilty about being harsh towards Aerith. She sent 89 letters to Zack during the four long years he never returned to Midgard and the only letter Zack received was the 89th. I got excited when I learned that Tseng asked Cissnei to find Zack, so he could give him Aerith's letters. I would like to hear everything Aerith said. But my hopes got shattered when those infantrymen came. Zack's last DMW was a memory of Aerith. Then I began to change my feelings for her.

I still can't accept the fact that Zack died. I fought so hard to defeat Genesis [twice], Angeal, and Sephiroth. I made sure that he has equipped the best materia I made from materia fusions and the best gears. I never let him fight without checking his supplies (potions, soma, ether, remedy). I worked so hard to keep him alive then he'll just die?!

Actually, I blamed Cloud for acting like a weakling. Zack took care of him ever since they got out of Shinra Manor's underground tunnel. He never got well. All he could say was "Ngh" and "Mmh" whenever Zack talked to him. He never recovered. That's why I blame him for Zack's death. If only he could get up and help Zack defeat the battalion of infantrymen.

I hated Tseng. He wanted to capture Zack before. Now he wants to see Zack alive to give him Aerith's letters?! I mean, choose just one side, okay? So I'll know not to trust you.

I also hated Sephiroth. Zack's last mission was with him. They were supposed to work together, and return to Midgard together. But he betrayed Zack. His mission with Sephiroth was his last mission known to Shinra. If Sephiroth never went mad, they could have returned to Midgard and lived happily ever after.

~End of Spoiler~

But the plot won't be as good as it is without these things and these people. It could have been a fairy tale like any other story would end. But it didn't end happily like how Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, Rapunzel, or Pride and Prejudice ended. I believe that the best love stories are those with tragic endings. Because these are the stories that will never leave our memory. These are the stories that will touch our hearts so.

Anyway, I pray that posting about this will help me ease my depression, and that it will help me get over with his death. LOL. This is the first game I grew attached to. I got so attached that after realizing that my Zack Fair is gone for good I cried. LOL. I cried, really. I never cry in movies or in books. And it would be really difficult for a person who doesn't know me very very well to make me cry. I can't believe that a video game made me cry.