Stories&Photographs

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Random

I can't sleep. I have to post this thing I extracted from...uhh, never mind.

"I want to break away from the world. I want to find some place serene. I want to hit the walls that surround me. But I can't. I shall put my thoughts into ink instead.

I want to apologize to you. I want to tell you how regretful I am about that. I want to tell you how terribly sorry I am for making you worry. I want you to know that I did it without thinking. It was foolish, I know. But, even a million words is not enough to make you understand.

But tonight as I lie under the night sky, I think of today. Of you. Of me. Of everything. I could not sleep. It brings me pain to think of you. I believed each word from your lips. And having you defy even just one of your own words troubles me. It burdens me.

Today I felt tired. I tried to make adjustments about everything. And I did those willingly for I want to make up for my mistake. It had cost me a lot; I surrendered the thing I value most--pride.

I do not blame you, however, for having me lose this treasure. "I did it willingly," I said. I do not even accuse you responsible for the feelings I have now.

Right now, I want someone to talk to. I want someone to listen as I spill my thoughts. But no one can spare time at the moment for this moment is when people rest.

I want rest too. "Having you defy even just one of your own words troubles me. It burdens me." I want to have this weight lifted. That is why I shall go now and leave behind my pearls on the grass."

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Randomness

Yet another random post.

WARNING: Don't read if you are uninterested in a diary-type post.

It's good to be back at school again. No more worrying about what I have been missing. I missed school for three days because of some viral infections accompanied by other viral infections. That's why I missed our speech choir rehearsals. I do hope I could cope with everything as I attend to some responsibilities in the English Club. *sigh*

The English Club kidnapped me during the afternoon. We planned for everything under the sun. And we planned for having our own 'cosplaying' too. I can't reveal who I'll be cosplaying because I haven't settled that yet. But, yeah, I'm raiding closets in here to find things I need. Too bad we just talked about this today. If only we had talked about this a bit earlier, I could have had time to shop for stuff. LOL. But I'm really sad because time is not on my side; I need the stuff on Friday.

I can't stress myself today because I haven't fully recovered from my maladies yet(haha). So...I planned my escape. Same old "doctor's appointment". Haha. BUT, I bought stuff for the English Club. :) That's a valid excuse, right?

Since my fellow officers are too busy rehearsing for the speech choir, I offered to buy the stuff. They were asking if it was okay for me to go alone and I said 'yes'. I mean, I'm used to going solo. Also, we need to learn to do stuff by ourselves or we'll look like fools in the future.

So...let me tell you how my trip went.

I realized a lot of things. One of the things I like most about going solo is having time for myself. I think about a lot of things when I walk--when I walk under the moon, at the mall, in the rain, everywhere.

Changes. I passed by Quantum today and noticed that the Dance Maniax...uhh, machine was gone. Don't get me wrong. I knew about that before. Months ago. It's just that I haven't actually seen the spot without the machine on it. I saw it today. It looked so bare and empty. It's absence marks a big change for me. I mean, after about 7 months (I hope I remembered it right) of having its rhythm ringing in your ear over and over and watching the inexhaustible players dance like they can never dance again...It's gone. But, everything changes. Everyone changes. You change. I change. People come. People leave. And it all happens for a reason.

Straw vs. Stro. I found myself in the supermarket next. I was saying, "Straw, straw, straw. S-T-R-A-W. Yung pantali." Until the salesman said, "Aah, stro." Then he suggested that I look for it in a hardware instead. I also remember the security guard who checked my bag for firearms. He told me, "Mag-aral kang mabuti ah." Do I look like I'm slacking from school? Well, I admit that I can be a real slacker sometimes. So for the guard: I'll try. :)

"Good afternoon. Ay, good evening pala. Miss, san ka nag-aaral?" One of things I hate most about going solo is being disturbed by these kind of people as I peacefully think of things. Going back, "How can you not see where I study? I was wearing my uniform and you were obviously reading my name patch. How can you not see it when we're sharing the same step on the escalator and you're facing me?" But I replied, "Muntinlupa Science High School?" Yes, I ended it with a question mark. Then I made a sharp turn to the left. Thank God the hardware was just right there.

Sunday, November 09, 2008

alyzza Ü

I got this from Eunice which she got from blogthings.com. I have always used the site to kill time but since there's no time to kill lately, I have slowly drifted away from blogthings. Anyway, what's my name's hidden meaning?




What Alyzza Means



You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic “Type A” personality.



You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.



You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.



You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.

You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.

But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.



You strive for perfection.

I don't really see myself as a perfectionist. Virgos have always been called perfectionists. But, I can't see myself as one. I have been called a perfectionist a couple of times, though.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

I don't get worked up easily? Lately, I have been really worked up. It probably means that an extreme lot of things happened that get me worked up. My secret to life? Uhh.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

Yes, I will resent anyone who tries to fence me in.

You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.
But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.

Yes, keeping the peace in my own life is not very easy. And yes, I see things very differently and it is hard to get me to budge.

P.S.
Eunice, I sort of copied your title. Haha. I'm too tired to come up one of my own.