Two Stars

I fell in love with a star.

She was my star. She promised me that she was mine forever and that when she shines, she shines for me. She said that she would shine whenever she feels happy and that she would shine even brighter if I gaze at her. She promised never to leave me and that when I look up at the night sky, she would be up there, shining. She said that when the clouds start to move and cover her, she would shine her brightest just so I would know that she was still there. My star was the loveliest star among the millions that scatter across the blanket of blue above.

And so I promised to be faithful to her, my star. I told her that I would never cease watching her. Me looking at her would make my star feel very happy. She would shine, then I would know that she is happy. And that would be enough to make me feel blissful.

Up in the sky, my star glittered while I watch her from my balcony. Indeed she shines bright, even brighter than the stars that surround her. She once told me that stars shine only when they are happy. Seeing her shine brighter than the other stars, I feel so satisfied for making her feel that way. I make her glitter. I make her happy. That's what I do to her.

But what she does to me, it's more than making me happy. It's more than making my lips smile. She gives me a weird feeling when she glitters. Her radiance...it makes me want her even more. I want to reach her, touch her, and wrap my arms around her...forever. I want to feel her. I had to have her or I'd die. But I can't, she forbade me to even try. She would be enraged if I tried. She spoke of a deep emptiness that would engulf me if I try to touch her. I don't want my star to get mad so I have to keep my distance and admire her from afar. I have to stay away from her. It was hard - knowing that she's there yet I can't reach her. But I tried to get past through that difficulty. I looked at her and I began to love her...even more. Her illumination amid the dark night sky makes me feel safe. With her light, I don't feel alone. I feel her presence. I feel a companion. I feel comforted.

Clouds slowly moved and began to cover her, but my star shone brighter. The clouds left her and there she was again, with her brilliance. She came back and I felt peaceful. I felt peaceful because once again, she glittered. From that moment on, I knew that nothing bad could ever happen to me. I felt safe with her.

She twinkled - I had never seen anything so perfect. Knowing that she was happy calmed my weary heart.

Suddenly something even brighter came. It was so fast I even failed to see whether my star struggled to surpass the sudden light. Light scattered everywhere, soon there were no traces of the black blanket where my star hung. I waited long for my star to return but there was only one light, one very bright light. How happy could that star be to shine that bright? Could my star possibly cease from shining? Why didn't she ask me to do more to make her happy?

I'm confused. I feel alone. Why does this new star shine even brighter when I look at her? Why does she come at this moment, this moment when I feel alone? Why can't my star shine when this new star can? Somehow I wish she was you, my star. I wish she was you. I know I did promise to be faithful, but...it's hard to be faithful when you push me away, when you stop me from reaching you. It's hard to be faithful when you yourself are making me stay away from you.

Almonds and Dried Fruits

We were asked to find a nice quote, write it on an illustration board, and decorate it with stuff in Values class during my second year high school. I thought it was lame, but anyway...

Me: Ano quote mo?
Seatmate: Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get.
Me: Pffft. Okaaay.

You know what? I received a box of chocolates lately. I was expecting bitter dark chocolate, but I got sweet milk chocolate. And the best part was my chocolates had a bonus. My chocolates had almonds and dried fruits. And that made me even happier.

The Birthday Surprise

I never had a plan for my birthday. Before I went to bed last Friday, I set my mind on only one thing: Come what may.

Thank you, Joyce, for being the first to greet me [at 12:01 AM].

I woke around noon and that was the time to make unique thank you-replies for everyone. Then I heard something from the dining room.

Inna: *whisper* *whisper*
Mom: O? Birthday niya ba? I didn't know. No one reminded me.
Dad: Oo nga. 'Di ko rin naalala e.
Me: *comes out from the bedroom* Mga baaaaad!

Dad decided to treat us dinner somewhere later.

I was lying on the sofa after lunch because I have nothing better to do. Then came a text message.

Dela: Ano ba gusto mo, cake o crema de fruta?
Me: Crema de Fruta. Baka pinapaasa mo lang ako ah.
Dela: 'Di ah. Di ako marunong magpaasa.

Dela offered to give me something for my birthday weeks ago and I jokingly agreed. He was never believable, you know.

Dela: Nandito na 'ko sa tapat ng bahay ninyo.
Me: O? Seryoso ka ba? 'Di pa nga 'ko naliligo eh. Wahahaha.

He began to ask me questions about our house and what startled me was...

Dela: 34 ba ang number ng bahay ninyo?
Me: Waaa. Nasa labas ka talaga? Maliligo muna ako.
Dela: Sige, I'll wait.

AWW.

After some time...

Me: Nasa labas ka talaga?
Dela: Tingnan mo.

I thought that he would just give the cake and walk away so I just wore a hoodie and shorts, but he wanted to go to Riel's. Since Riel's house isn't too faraway, I agreed to go wearing my shorts [which look rubbish]. I also told Dela that because he kidnapped me, he had to pay for my transport - I didn't bring any money because I thought that he wouldn't stay long. I promised to pay him the next time, though.

A piece of Dela's cake

Riel was still dressing when we came - our visit was a surprise too. After some chitchat, we went to the mall because Riel needed tracing papers for his plates. The two had to convince me to go to the mall with my lame clothes on. We met Dianne on the way so we asked her to go with us too.

At the mall, we searched for Nemei and continued walking to nowhere. When we have gone around the mall, we decided that it's time to buy Riel's tracing papers. We spent a lot of time in the store because he needed a lot of things. Rabbi came shortly.

Finally, it was time for me to leave them and join my family for dinner. And because it's my birthday, Superbowl gave me a nice chocolate ice cream. There were a lot of people celebrating their birthdays there, too. A lot of people's birthdays are on September, lol.

My chocolate ice cream. It reads "super happy birthday".

Before the day ends and this post ends...

I curled under my blanket and thought of all the things that happened the whole day. Everything was so spontaneous. And I liked it. But after summing everything up, I noticed something missing. Like a splendid wedding without a bride or a marvelous rainbow without an indigo.