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Sunday, October 26, 2008

Random Rant

This is a random rant. Sorry. I really need to pour this out of my heart.

Let me rant. I apologize for screaming so much last Saturday. This time, I'll just write my complaints.

It's supposed to be our semestral break. I'm supposed to be hibernating. I'm supposed to be watching Friends. I'm supposed to be reading manga. I'm supposed to be playing the piano.

But I can't because I will be writing this paper in English which I don't even have the slightest idea on how to begin. I can't because we will be taking a remedial test in Electronics tomorrow. I can't because I will be rehearsing with the rondalla all day on Wednesday. I can't because we will be performing all day on Thursday. I can't because I will be busy doing stuff for our Science Investigatory Project. I can't because we're going away on Saturday. And that leaves me another set of weekends before classes resume. I can't seem to find the break in the semestral break. Sigh. I need a life.


Going back to last Saturday, I am really, really pissed. I was hoping that I could spend the day doing what I want. I was hoping of watching the games or singing in the videoke all day long. But...my hopes were shattered. I was forced to rehearse this thing I don't really like in the first place. Do you know how it feels like being forced to do what do not want to do? Do you know how it feels like being full of people who force you to do things?

Sometimes I wish that I could be somewhere else. Somewhere away from reality. A place where I could just watch the stars and never worry about getting home late. A place where I can sing at the top of my lungs and no one will tell me to stop. A place where I can listen to someone playing the piano all night long. A place where I can lie and get up only when I wanted to.

Enough of that.

For the last time today, I'll rant. After this, I'll start my writeup in English, seriously.

Can I have me deciding for myself some time? This time, can I do what I want?