Missing!

I just noticed. My blog has been idle for exactly two months. Individualistic doer was dated July 28, 2008. Anyway...

I finished reading my assigned novel about a month ago. I remember my sister coming in my room and asking me, "Ano 'yan?" to which I replied, "Message in a Bottle."
"Alam mo bang 'yan ang pinaka-******* [Set aside negative comments.]"
"Oo nga. Ayoko naman talaga nito eh. Anyway, spoiled na ang story."

What came after were my rants about how I hated that novel. I don't have anything against Nicholas Sparks but--I just don't like romantic novels of this kind.

When our teacher was assigning us novels, I was actually imagining him calling me and telling me, "You'll get Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice." I was also imagining a happy smile and twinkling eyes on my face after hearing that. But, a classmate got it first. He promised to exchange novels with me if I get him another love story. But...he broke his promise. I broke his bones after that. Wahahaha. Anyway, that's how I got stuck with "Message in a Bottle'.

Though I have said a lot of bad things about the book—I'm really bitter because I didn't get "Pride and Prejudice". No more dreaming of Mr. Darcy. T.T—I still afforded to find something good in it.

Spoilers:

Basically, these are some things you have to remember if you decide to continue reading the spoilers and you haven't read the book yet.
1. Garrett can't get over the death of his wife, Catherine. He just loves her so much.
2. Theresa is a columnist. She was divorced from her husband.
3. Garrett and Theresa met. And they fell in love.

In the end, Garrett died in a storm. He sailed to the sea to send his last 'message in a bottle' to Catherine. And he wasn't able to survive the storm. When Theresa learned about this, she grieved, of course. In the later part, she was sending a message in a bottle to the sea. It's a letter to Garrett which says something like:

This is not a letter of goodbye but rather a letter of thanks. I am thinking of you as someone who taught me that people could love again, even after they lost someone whom they really, really love. And now, it's my turn. Thank you, blah..blah..blah...

I could have just reached for my book and copy Theresa's letter to make it sound better but...I lost my book. T.T I have looked for it in every possible place it might lay. And, I'm missing it. I miss my book, even after cursing it. Hehe.

Anyway, it kept me thinking. What if everything you have are just things that will teach you what to do in the future?

Realizations at 2 in the Morning

I was watching Friends yesterday and I remember Alan—the guy Monica was dating at that episode—advising Chandler not to smoke. He did it easily, effortlessly, and successfully. Plus, he did it so quickly. His friends tried almost everything to stop him but only Alan succeeded. No one, except for Chandler, knew what Alan said because it was a telephone conversation. At the end of the conversation, Chandler said something like, "No one has ever put it up that way." And like any other person, I was wondering what Alan could have said to convince Chandler to quit smoking.

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I remember writing on my journal (it's a project in English class) and asking my teacher, "Does it always have to be that way? Will I become a teacher too?" That day, he was telling us that he never dreamt of becoming a teacher. But he became one, anyway. Another teacher also told us the same thing and obviously, he had the same fate. And I was sort of seeing one of my blog entries in the future beginning like this:

"Years back, I have always told people that I wanted to become someone like this person. And now I'm like this. Very far, or at least a little far, from what I was imagining myself to be."

BTW, my teacher's advice was to follow my will because it might happen.

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Someone was telling me about a short conversation of two characters. I'll try hard to make it sound the way it sounded this morning. I forgot the exact words. Hehehe.

Character1: If I do this, it would take 34 years of my life.
Character2: But if you do it, you will know that it's worth it. Because it's what you want. Anything that your heart desires is worth waiting for. Your life will be of greatest value if you have reached your dreams.


What if Character1 had two options? And he likes both options. The second option requires only a short time. And given that time, he would have more time to fulfill the rest of his dreams. He would be able to fulfill more. Isn't that kind of life more valuable? Being able to do more?

But the storyteller argued:

Your life will be more valuable if you did what you really wanted. You don't create a second option and force yourself to like it so you could get away from the first option.

And I said, "Oh. No one has ever put it up that way."